Climbing the mountain

25 May 2019

At the beginning of the year, I made a goal of writing one blog post per month for the entire year. I’m now sitting here in May having to write this with what feels like a small mountain of work in front of me and have gone through one of the more difficult months of my life. So I just wanted to take this months blog post and use it to reflect on what has happened to me since last month.

I am in the final months of my bachelor degree, which means I’m finishing up my bachelor thesis and my last course, plus I’m working part-time in a super cool startup. So between school and work, I feel like I have more than enough on my plate. Which has manifested itself in headaches, tiredness, and anxiety, at least some days. Other days have been amazing, I’ve been filled with energy, super motivated and ready to at it. Basically, it’s been a wild roller coaster ride and I’ve been holding on for dear life. Still, sitting here looking back on just the last week, I wouldn’t change a thing. I can feel myself growing and become stronger mentally every day. I’m pushing myself past my comfort zone and doing things I never imagined myself doing. I am an introverted person and have been a bit (I say a bit, it’s probably a lot) shy for most of my life. Hiding behind people to avoid making decisions and taking charge. But this month, I’ve had to take charge in meetings, be the one to set the agenda and ask the questions. I’ve had to pick up the phone and call someone I’ve never talked to and ask for their time. A month ago, that was one of the more terrifying things I could think of. Now, that I’ve done it a few times, it’s nowhere near as scary. So for all the stress and headaches, this time of my life is causing me, I’ve realized that I just need to embrace it because it’s making me a much better person.

Another thing I’ve learned is, spaced repetition is the best tool for getting things done. I have a goal of writing at least 300 words on my bachelor thesis every day. It’s been over a month now and I have 20 pages worth of content for my thesis without having completed my research. Sure a good chunk of it will never be used or has to be re-written, but I have something. So with my own deadline of a week for the first draft is actually not impossible, because I have content to work with. The same goes for my last course. I haven’t been studying for it that much, the exam is in two days and I still feel like I have a good grasp on the content because I’ve been looking at it every few days for the past month. But I guess we’ll see on the exam if it’s all in my head.

Honestly, if I hadn’t been chipping away at my mountain of work every day, I wouldn’t be sitting here, feeling like I have time to write this blog post. So if there is one thing I can take away from this whole ordeal, it’s that “a little goes a long way”. Even though it’s doesn’t feel like I’m making much progress day to day, looking back at it, I feel like I’ve chipped away a massive chunk of the mountain. Now it’s just a matter of getting the last bit and the whole thing should come crumbling down. Then I’ll be writing next months blog post in Denmark after celebrating my sister graduating and having handed in my thesis. I for one cannot wait till that day. So until then, thank you for reading this little reflection and I hope it can give some hope for anyone in the same situation.

See you on the other side!